The Brink of Despair

If the covering cherub had been laboring under hidden guilt, worry about coming chaos as recompense for mounting errors would have harried his thoughts as he performed his duties, fanning fires of shame.

Dread of his personal liability would have become a nagging irritant as he thought, and he would have become obsessed with the spectacle of being demoted from the highest level of service to sudden banishment in ignominy. If he had been tracking ever-widening pathways of error, it would have harassed and unnerved him, world without end.

Whether or not he was conscious of guilt, we know by the flaw’s report that the Light Bearer was changed. He was transmogrified, transfigured, reborn, recreated, born anew. He had been praised as the perfect covering cherub; but in becoming a man, he would become feared as a perfectly intolerable menace by some and hated by others as the scapegoat, which reminded them of their own iniquities.

After expulsion from heaven, his reception on earth as a mortal would have been met with resentment from everyone he encountered, drawing shame and derision upon him. His adoptive brothers would have painted him with guilt that he would forever shoulder as an infectious outsider.

Still worse, bloody tale bearers would surely seal his dishonor among their fellows with gossip; and he would be labeled as a devil. Some would even whisper that he was the Satan about whom they had been warned.

Times are determined by the spin of the wheel; and in God’s creation, wheels turn within wheels as firmaments evolve into expanses. By the time Lucifer first lived as a human being, the bane of iniquity would have touched every family on earth.

Perceived through the dimmed eyes of errant mortals, the fallen angel could expect no sympathy for his fate; nor would he find remedy against the shudder his name awakened in the hearts of his contemporaries.

Ostracism is severe punishment. On his own at all times, Lucifer would have craved alliances. He would have welcomed even his fiercest detractors because confrontation requires interaction, which would have chiseled away at the distance between himself and his accusers, relieving his solitude and opening a causeway for dialog.

Desperation would have been driving him near madness. His thirsting soul would have been riven by an itch of the absurd; and the corrosive cancer of guilt within his angelic core would have metastasized into a narcissistic pride that had not been present in his experience as the covering cherub, but which would have seized upon his nakedness as a hapless man.

It would no longer be said of him that he was perfect in all his ways, or that he was the Bearer of God’s Light.

When the realms were created, an expanse between heaven and earth was formed to divide the higher from the lower, the light from the darkness, and to rule the reality of discrete systems integrated with other systems throughout the expanse of space, in whose vacuum night and day are one.

The times of creation are not linear, as the natural mind would inform us, but circular, as memory, intuition, and the movement of heavenly bodies suggest. This view was favored by ancient seers and is gaining popularity among modern scientists.

As HaShem told the prophet Jeremiah, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you. Before you were born, I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

Our paths begin in heaven, not on earth; and our futures will find us on one of any number of heaven’s mansions as we explore everlasting life. For that to become reality, however, we must pass through the eye of the needle: through heaven’s farther gate and into realms that eye has not seen nor ear, heard.

The gatekeeper is the creator, but iniquity, which hid in the nexus between what is above and things that are below, now hides between that which is and that which is coming.

Neither bad nor good, iniquity is a reagent that operates under the purview of HaShem. It is not subject to the laws of temporal realms, although all created realms are bound by the same principles, in that they are wrought by the hand of the father. Although iniquity and its operations stem from a realm that’s beyond the known realms of heaven and earth, its effects are experienced in temporal realms because it is fundamental to creation’s systems. We are taught HaShem, alone, is perfect— that none is good but la. Within all brightness, there is one point of origin.